Monday, April 29, 2013

I wish you can say….

 

“I'm sorry I don't understand where all of this is coming from, I thought that we were fine. your head is running wild again my dear we still have everything and it's all in your mind. You've been having real bad dreams, you used to lie so close to me, there's nothing more than empty sheets between our love, our love…”

 

 

but…. it’s all just a dream that never happen in real life..

Friday, April 26, 2013

heart attack

 

 

Puttin’ my defences up
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack


Never put my love out on the line
Never said yes to the right guy
Never had trouble getting what I want
But when it comes to you, I’m never good enough
When I don’t care
I can play ‘em like a Ken doll
Won’t wash my hair
Then make 'em bounce like a basketball


But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear high heels
Yea you, make me so nervous
That I just can’t hold your hand


You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack (x3)


Never break a sweat for the other guys
When you come around, I get paralyzed
And everytime I try to be myself
It comes out wrong like a cry for help
It’s just not fair
Pain’s more trouble than love is worth
I gasp for air
It feels so good, but you know it hurts


But you make me wanna act like a girl
Paint my nails and wear perfume
For you, make me so nervous
That I just can’t hold your hand
You make me glow, but I cover up
Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I’d have a heart attack (x3)


The feelings got lost in my lungs
They’re burning, I’d rather be numb
And there’s no one else to blame
So scared I take off and I run
I’m flying too close to the sun
And I burst into flames
You make me glow, but I cover up


Won’t let it show, so I’m
Puttin’ my defences up
‘Cause I don’t wanna fall in love
If I ever did that
I think I'd have a heart attack (x2)
I think I'd have a heart attack
I think I'd have a heart attack (x2)

Monday, April 22, 2013

kasihNya masih ada…

 

|marissa|malik|saufi|nana|amy

 

“kau banyak salah pada aku. berbalik juga padaku. kita perlu perbetul apa yang tersilap. maaf. aku pergi dulu. kau cari kehidupan kau.” marissa.

“aku tak mampu hidup tanpa kau. kau umpama sebahagian dari nyawaku. jangan pergi.” malik.

 

bulan hanya berputar dipaksinya tak lambat dan tak cepat….

 

kaukah saufi?

maaf tak. kau salah orang.

 

marissa, ada yang sanggup tunggu aku. tapi aku tetap tunggu kau.

malik, jangan tunggu aku dan jangan bazirkan masa perempuan tu. go ahead and get a new life malik..

 

sejenak…

 

|sesi perkenalan diri|

 

nama aku saufi, aku tinggal …….. blablabla

 

kau rupanya saufi… (dalam hati)

 

saufi, kau kenal aku?

betul, aku kenal kau..

 

sejenak….

 

marissa, jom aku ajak kau tengok wayang.

ha? oh! aku suka! jom.

 

kau tau, aku tak pernah alami segala ini. kau umpama mengajar aku sebahagian kecil dunia yang sebelum ini aku buta.

tak da hal punya. kau pasti gembira. banyak benda yang aku nak tunjuk pada kau.

aku rasa bahagia! sungguh!

 

aku nak bawa kau kat  satu tempat. tempatnya sunyi. kau berani?

aku suka cabaran. pasti tempat tu menarik kan! tak sabar.

marissa, pandang kiri.

tiada apa.cuma hutan… (beberapa saat) wah! cantiknya! aku tak pernah nampak kawasan ini! sungguh cantik dan menenangkan.

kat sini kau boleh tenangkan fikiran kau yang kusut.

betul… (menghayati pemandangan yang indah)

 

aku tenggelam dalam lamunan bayangan. sesaat, terasa bahagia menenggelam hati luka. semuanya berlaku sepantas kilat.

 

seharian berlalu….

 

“titt titt” (tone mesej)

celcom offer.

kecewa. mengapa kau mendiam? ?? ?? terlalu banyak persoalan.

 

saufi! kau kemana?!

aku kat sini. ada kerja sikit.

oh! jap aku datang! …………………. terdiam

aku nampak dia. maaf, hati aku terguris tanpa sedar. mata, bibir dan lidahku sedaya upaya menyembunyikan perit itu.

 

“titt titt”

marissa, tolong aku sikit boleh? rumit sikit hal ni. –saufi-

[tersenyum] ok. bleh je.. aku tolong kau.

aku gembira kerja ngan kau. lain kali tolong aku lagi ye.

tak de hal lah. aku pun gembira kerja dengan kau.

kau rindu aku?

pasti.

sama..

 

hati berbunga kembali..

 

seminggu…

marissa… aku ada benda nak cakap sikit.. –nana-

ye, ada apa nana?

pasal saufi..

kenapa dia?

aku nampak dia… aku tak suka perbuatan tu..

apa kau nampak?

em, em… aku terus terang lah. emy yang nampak sebenarnya baik kau tanya emy sendiri.

 

sejenak…

emy, aku nak tanya kau. dari hati ke hati.

ye, pasal apa ni? pelik bunyinya.

emy, aku suka kat saufi. kau kawan aku. aku nak tanya kau suka tak aku kawan dengan dia?

em… maaf, sejujur, aku tak suka kau kawan dengan dia. aku tak suka perbuatan dia. mulanya aku cuba untuk diamkan diri supaya kau tak disakiti. namun, aku faham kau lagi sakit bila kau tak tahu apa-apa..

terima kasih emy.. aku pun rasa begitu..

marissa, malik jauh lagi baik dari saufi. kau dah lama kenal malik. saufi sesaat saja.

malik ada orang lain lah emy..

oh! maaf aku tak tahu..

 

semalaman…

 

marissa, kau sibuk? aku nak bincang sikit.

ye malik. aku sibuk sangat-sangat.

sesaat. please.

baiklah..

 

marissa, aku nak confess kat kau. aku reka cerita. aku tak nak kehilangan kau. tolonglah..

aku amat faham perasaan kau, maaf aku lukakan hati kau juga..

marissa, kau ada masalah cerita kat aku. orang baru tempat kau sangat bahaya. tambah-tambah perempuan seperti kau.

em… kau saja tempat aku mengadu. aku cuma ada kau sorang saja. terkadang aku terasa hidup aku sekarang umpama drama. tapi itulah hakikat dunia ini. kau kekuatan aku. kau sorang nampak aku lemah sebab kau saja boleh kuatkan aku. takde siapa boleh tandingi kau dalam hati aku. Tuhan tak beri apa yang aku inginkan tapi Tuhan bagi apa keperluan aku. aku biarpun kau tak seperti apa yang aku idamkan (seperti saufi) namun kau lah lelaki yang aku perlukan.

apapun keadaan kau, aku sangat pasti kau akan kembali pada aku. ini kali yang ke empat. aku sebak, Tuhan telah kabulkan doa-doa aku selama ini.

kau lelaki yang tabah dan setia. maafkan aku..

kasih Tuhan pada kau masih ada. Dia sayangkan kau. Dia taknak kau jadi jauh lebih teruk. kau orang baik..

em..

 

 

SAM_1184

Saturday, April 6, 2013

I knew you were trouble when you walked in

 

Once upon time
A few mistakes ago
I was in your sights
You got me alone
You found me
You found me
You found me


I guess you didn't care
And I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard
You took a step back
Without me, without me, without me


And he's long gone
When he's next to me
And I realize the blame is on me

Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
Till you put me down oh

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
Now i'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble


No apologies
He'll never see you cry
Pretend he doesn't know
That he's the reason why
You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning


And I heard you moved on
From whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt
Is all I'll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see
He was long gone
When he met me
And I realize the joke is on me


I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
Till you put me down oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
Now i'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble


When your sadest fear comes creeping in
That you never loved me or her or anyone or anything
Yeah


I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Till you put me down oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places i'd never been
Now i'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble


I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble!

Monday, April 1, 2013

I'm in love with criminal




He is a hustler, he's no good at all
He is a loser, he's a bum, bum, bum, bum
He lies, he bluffs, he's unreliable
He is a sucker with a gun, gun, gun, gun
I know you told me I should stay away
I know you said he's just a dog astray
He is a bad boy with a tainted heart
And even I know this ain't smart

But mama I'm in love with a criminal
And this type of love isn't rational, it's physical
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright
All reason aside I just can't deny, love the guy

He is a villain by the devil's law
He is a killer just for fun, fun, fun, fun
That man's a snitch and unpredictable
He's got no conscience, he got none, none, none, none
Oh-ooooo I know-ooooo, should've let go, but no
'Cause he is a bad boy with a tainted heart
And even I know this ain't smart

But mama I'm in love with a criminal
And this type of love isn't rational, it's physical
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright
All reason aside I just can't deny, love the guy

And he's got my name
Tattooed on his arm
His lucky charm
So I guess it's OK
He's with me
And I hear people talk (people talk)
Try to make remarks
Keep us apart
But I don't even hear
I don't care

'Cause mama I'm in love with a criminal
And this type of love isn't rational, it's physical
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright
All reason aside I just can't deny, love the guy
(Oh-ooooo I know-ooooo)
Mama I'm in love with a criminal
(Should've let go)
And this type of love isn't rational,
(But no)
It's physical
(Oh-ooooo I know-ooooo)
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright
(Should've let go)
All reason aside
(But no)
I just can't deny, love the guy