Tuesday, December 18, 2012

life path

 

 

Actually, I already realize that I never share my life story here. Yes, I am closed person that not simply telling somebody my life story. This is because I don’t like people talking about me when I in that situation. So now, when all the situations, events being a past, I would like to share with you guys What actually I have being through.

 

the chronology began after last semester for my batch in University. I’m from Diploma In Town And Regional Planning at UiTM Seri Iskandar Perak batch July 2008. Majority from my friends successful grad on time and continue their study in Degree at Shah Alam. But, student like me was stuck at last semester. I was extend one semester for my thesis. I should not blame my buddy, but I have a mistake too. I don’t land both of my hand to her for the sake of our thesis. She’s now continue in degree just after our last thesis pass and we grad. But me, still be an employee at the big company.

when I at my last semester which is extended semester for the thesis, I was worked as Account Assistant at Utusan Airtime Petaling Jaya. My lecturer was suggested me to work there because the CEO of the company are belonging to his relatives. I was worked there for 5 months for waiting to continue my degree. But I got the offer letter from TNB as a clerk. Yes, I was filled the form as a clerk before I worked at Utusan. I was soooo excited with that letter because I can work with my father’s company! I can see my future and my life goal was changed from be a town planner or town planning lecturer to be a TNB staff. At that time, I was decided to taka a degree in administrative and forget the town planning. My sister actually doesn’t agree with my new goal. She still insist to ask me to continue my study in town planning.

But, all that dreams just be a dreams.. It is because, I didn’t get the clerk position but below than that. Okay, this is my biggest fault because I don’t read 100% the offer letter. at the bottom of the letter, the real position already stated there. (>.<)   I can’t see my future. my future already blank turning black in colour. I crying all night long. before going to bed and after wake up in the morning my tear are my loyal companion. According to the contract, we must attend the program at ILSAS in UNITEN. after done that program, we’ll make on job training for 6 months and then we’ll be a permanent staff. But, if we want to resign after done the ILSAS program, we must pay that program course around RM 8,000 – 12,000. Okay fine. I got the offer letter to go to ILSAS but I refused. I make a letter that I’ll finished my contract in the end of this year and I don’t want be a permanent staff there.

Now, I already pass a year at there. the hardest situation I ever through. I thought being a town planning student is the toughest path in my life, but this job are way toughest than that. It is because do what u don’t like to do, handle the insane people and etc,etc, etc. at least,  being a town planning student is do what you love to do. design what in your head and scolded by the lecturer because of your own mistake not other’s. I know, All my friends will grad in 6 months onward. but for me, Never late to be a student. If we still have people who can support our study, grab it. do it! don’t let it be a memory and regret it in the future.

I wish, I hope, I can continue my study next semester and be a better person than now. Sit at the better place than I was sat before. InsyAllah..

currently,

 

 

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good bye TNB..

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

simple shawl tutorial: A usual shawl.

 

who want to know my way to wear hijab? here are the tutorial. the tutorial might be the same but the material, length, and design of shawl are different. Who can watch detail in my tutorial they will notice the slightly difference between each videos. :)

#1 : zibra printed usual shawl.

 

xo~

Sunday, December 2, 2012

out of memory

 

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memandangkan kedua-dua local disk saya dah merah, and now I can do nothing. tak boleh nak edit gambr, takboleh nak edit video tutorial and yang paling sedih, my 500gb external hardisk can’t detect when plug in on my laptop. terbaik bukan?? :(

 

what I must do right now is, transfer semua data dalam kedua-dua local disk ni dalam memory space yang baru yang entah bila nak membelinya.

the second one is, every month I must get two 8gb pendrives which is one for original data and one for editable data that I’ll upload on internet. cara macam tu lagi bagus rasanya. malas nak beli external yang besar-besar sampai 1tera ke apa ke yang at the end takboleh bukak langsung! dah la banyak data dalam tu kan. (-_-)

okay la, want to find out a new pendrive to store my memories. bye..

Saturday, November 24, 2012

pilih

 

 

Setiap baris kata-kata yang ku baca
Bagaikan jalan hidupku
Tiada lurus semua seolah hampa
Haruskah aku sesali
Bagai kisah kita yang surut selalu
Bilakan berakhir
Biarkan aku berundur
Jika itu yang telah pun tertulis
Jalan ku tak panjang
Bersama dirimu
Jadikan dia terbaik
Kerana itu yang telah kau pilih
Biarkan diriku membawa semua
Luka
Setiap kata kau ucap semua dusta
Pernahkah kau menyesali
Tiada tulus semua helah semata
Haruskah aku menanti
Kini kan berakhir
Ku takkan berpaling
Relakan segala
Biarkan aku berundur
Jika itu yang telah pun tertulis
Jalan ku tak panjang
Bersama dirimu
Jadikan dia terbaik
Kerana itu yang telah kau pilih
Biarkan diriku membawa semua
Luka

 

Apabila melihat, mengkaji balik, siapa, bagaimana, mengapa, kenapa, bila mereka yang masih lagi tinggal disana, mungkin mereka itu sudah tiada pilihan atau mempunyai tujuan tersendiri dan penyebab-penyebab yang mungkin mereka tidak dapat dielakkan. mungkin juga mereka sudah merasa selesa, atau sudahpun putus harapan untuk terus kehadapan berganjak dari takuk itu. dan kerana semua itulah takdir mereka tetap disana.

namun bagi aku, aku masih percaya pada rezeki Allah s.w.t dimana kita harus berusaha selagi mampu, tidak mahu menanti bulan jatuh keriba, termakan dengan janji-janji palsu. aku tak bodoh untuk diperbodohkan dengan semua kata manis yang tertulis namun hakikat dusta dan terhimpit oleh situasi tengang yang tidak berkesudahan hingga selamanya selagi pengurusan adalah dibawah manusia yang berhati batu dibuta dan dituli oleh wang semata-mata sehingga menindas orang yang tidak tahu apa-apa kerana penipuan demi penipuan dilahirkan dan menyelubungi akal fikiran orang yang terus berharap kepada harapan palsu. aku bersyukur kerana Allah masih memberi masa kepadaku untuk berfikir dan meneruskan kehidupan yang penuh cabaran untuk memilih jalan yang mana. kesemua jalan ada liku dan kelikir yang tidak dapat dielakkan selain terus mengharunginya. Aku percaya pada diri bahawa takdir ada dihadapan. bukan waktunya lagi untuk aku berhenti berjuang dan membina kehidupan yang hakiki untuk menunggu ajal menjemput. aku mempunyai masa lagi untuk terus berjihad mengapai cita-cita yang melangit aku letakkan sejak dari aku kanak-kanak.

Aku harus kuat kerana setiap langkah, setiap peringkat mempunyai cabaran yang berbeza mngikut kemampuan diri. Apa yang dibekalkan adalah semangat juang yang tinggi dan percaya pada Allah dan selalu mendekatkan dan meminta supaya Ia sentiasa berada disisi dalam susah mahupun senang. Apa yang aku dapat simpulkan adalah setiap orang mempunyai hala tuju berlainan dan berlainan jalannya.  “Sesiapa hendak kepada dunia, maka hendaklah ia mencari ilmu dan sesiapa berkehendak kepada akhirat juga hendaklah ia mencari ilmu.” –Imam Syafie-

 

wassalam.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

three things before 30

 

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plus one beside

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sources of images: google

Sunday, October 21, 2012

rindu kepada kehilangan

 

kerinduan mulai menyelubungi

malam yang kelam

ditemani dedaun basah

dek kerana hujan melimpahi bumi

disaksikan bulan yang hanya menampakkan separuh tubuhnya

 

kehilangan yang telah lama pergi

mengintai sepi malam

mengusik kembali kenangan lama

diwaktu suka duga

 

bagai melambai-lambai memanggilku

untuk terus kedalam pelukan mereka.

sungguh, aku rindu akan kehilangan ini.

bagai mana cara dapatku kembali?

waktu telahpun menentukan segala.

 

kesalahanku, kerapuhanku,

membuatkan jurang

yang memisahkan

apa yang terapat.

 

putaran waktu,

hanya boleh menentu segala

sentiasa bergerak pantas

tak lambat dan tak cepat

bergerak dilandasan sekata

 

maafkan diatas segala kesalahanku.

Friday, October 12, 2012

instagram

buat masa sekarang, sy sgt jarang mengupdate blog. the fastest way sy berkongsi cerita is kat instagram. and, link utk ke instagram ada di side bar di blog nickyfara.blogspot.com. :) see you on instagram!

Saturday, October 6, 2012

sejujur rasa

 

sejujurnya, rasa itu telah pergi.

tak rasa lagi manisnya itu.

aku seperti disia-siakan.

tak lagi menjadi kepentingan.

mati di penghujung jalan.

satu penamat yaang tak sempat dicapai

oleh kerana halangan yang besar.

dengan satu kata dari si hati kosong.

 

daun pintu perlahan-lahan menolak tutup

kasih hanya mampu melihat tanpa sebarang riaksi

terguris hati melihat tanpa aksi.

 

jujur, aku tak mampu untuk berdiri tanpa kasih.

jujur kasih hanya ada satu dalam hidup.

aku kesorangan kerana hilangnya kasih.

aku pasrah kerana aku perlu kuat!

kuat untuk menempuh liku-liku tanpa kasih.

 

jujur.

rasa itu telah pergi.

perlahan-lahan.

 

jujur.

aku masih di perhentian.

menanti tibanya bahagia.

bertemankan pelukan air mata sepi.

Friday, October 5, 2012

very first official video

 

 

and, here are my second blog. this blog talk about beauty and fashion in my way. :D

so enjoy! n_~

Saturday, September 15, 2012

tutorial how to add page in the blog

 

this post actually special for my friend who are new in this blog world. n_n

 

okay, here are the tutorial how to add pages/tab in blogspot. (click the image to expand)

 

step 1:

 

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after you sign in your account, go to red rounded link as shown above.

 

step 2:

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after that, find the “new page”, then click “blank page”

 

step 3:

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make the “page title” in the rounded box as shown above. write what you want at the white blank page. after that, click “ update”.

 

step 4:

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then, if your tab didn’t show at your blog, be pleasure to check this page (follow step 1). make your pages show and you can decide the arrangement of your tab in your blog.

 

 

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then, tada!!! n_~

 

if you didn’t understand yet, you can drop your question on my facebook.

good luck! :)

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

cleaning my corner

 

 

sorry for the quality of camera and sound. (-_-)
this is my first video telling about my personal stuff. :)
I'm still learning how to be a vlogger :)

 

xoxo~

Thursday, September 6, 2012

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terperangkap dipersimpangan waktu.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

youtube admiring :D

 

 

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just like and enjoy her videos and subscribing her at facebook since end of last year but   :)

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

office end-day outfit

 

 

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Jumaat attire.

shawl: satin shawl Jln. TAR.

Black abaya: Mekah from muiezz’s umi.

jeans in abaya: padini (stright cut)

 

 

office attire when work at weekend.

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shawl: TudungPeople (black numa)

t-shirt: hush pupies (XL)

slack: Agenda (black)

 

 

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go out before work.

shawl: TudungPeople (dark purple numa)

tshirt: hush pupies (XL)

jeans: padini (bootcut)

slipper: Larries (black)

 

 

lunch with beloved before work. :)

 

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tolong muiezz panaskan enjin myvy while his panaskan viva. :))

 

 

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as always, Thai’s booth. our favourite cuisine.

Friday, August 17, 2012

pre-raya

 

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shopping raya with friends

 

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@ MNG Mid Valley.

 

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some of make up stuff from Sephora KLCC and MAC for my sista.

 

 

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some wedges and etc.. (sound like a lot! =P )

sorry my dear Muezz sebab nanti kamu akan kelihatan pendek.. =D

fyi, dah lama tak pakai wedges since my office didn’t allow shoes in there. (–_-)

 

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and last but not least, duit raya! ok, sy bagi adil-adil semua.

 

Selama hari Raya Aidil Fitri Maaf zahir dan batin semua readers!~

balik kampung hati-hati, bila penat singgah RnR.

Muiezz and me will back home at raya’s nite and we didn’t back to Kuala Berang but both will back to Besut and Bachok which is his hometown at Besut only takes 30minutes to my hometown! =D

 

(n_n)

see ya!~

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

beads

 

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have a lot of work to do.. =.=

beads o beads.

eggs

 

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home sweet home..

telur penyu+telur pindan..

nyummynyummy.. n_n

Monday, August 6, 2012

mask

 

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Guardian tea tree mask, and the body shop eye mask.

good nite gals!

hunt for shawl raya

 

 

 

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just pick one of their item. this is not for raya actually..

 

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this is for this blous.

thank for Muiezz because bring me here. n_~

 

second day hunting at Sugarscarf. at this time i’m alone without muiezz… ;(

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yeay! got two what i want.. Alhamdulillah.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Thursday, July 26, 2012

rasa

 

perkenalan membuak rasa tidak selesa

sepanjang masa bersama menimbulkan rasa benci membuak-buak

apabila masa terus berjalan, hati mulai akur, dan redha

apabila waktu dipenghujung melahirkan rasa bahagia dan sayang

waktu itu jugalah impian menunjukkan bayang

menjadi segalanya diantara dua

walau separuh hati berat dengan kasih sayang,

sebelah lagi mengimpikan impian yang sudah lama tepatri

 

apa yang termampu disaat ini, ku berserah pada-Mu dan memanjatkan doa, pasrah dengan segala ketentuan-Mu..

Berikanlah yang terbaik kepada hambaMu ini.. Amiin..

Monday, July 23, 2012

life journey

 

 

I’m creating unforgettable moments and let it be my precious past.

 

 

 

Monday, July 9, 2012

nikmat pagi

 

 

subuh ini, aku terjaga dari buaian mimpi indah

sekian lama tak pernah dibuai mimpi sebegini

paru-paruku terasa segar apabila mengirup dalam udara pagi

sungguh nyaman menyegarkan tubuh lesu ini.

bilaku buka kelopak mata,

kulihat tingkap terbuka luas sambil langsir menari lembut

mulutku mengukir senyuman.

dikatil ini, diruangan kamar inilah aku membesar sehingga usia lapan belas tahun

sebelum aku melangkah keluar meneruskan hidup sebagai anak perantau.

jujur, tinggal dikota raya tak pernah sedetik pun hening pagi dapat menyegarkan tubuhku

malah melemahkan dan semangat hidup kian jatuh setiap kali celik mata dipagi hari.

aku bersyukur masih bekesempatan merasai nikmat pagi yang segar sebegini. =)

Monday, June 18, 2012

perasaan

 

gemira dan sedih,

aku pilih sedih.

kerana sedih, jiwaku ikhlas mencari Mu.

untuk bercerita dan meluangkan masa bersama Mu.

ketika sedih, aku tidak menghiraukan apa-apa.

kecuali berserah kepada Mu.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

outdated


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I never grateful what was given to me... 

God put me in pure science but I change it with technical science.
My best friend right now doing her medic in Egypt. me??

God put me in University with town planning department.
I not too serious with my study and not try hard to extend my study  in degree. 
Now my batch's friends enjoy their enjoyable study in University.
me??

God put me in big company but as lower employee.
 I always hurt when do my work and now i want to resign.(only in my mind)
If I do the same thing like two above, I am such an ungrateful person..
(-_-)

God put me  in different ways to accept His rezqi according to what I thinking.
If we want like that He will give us like that. If like this He give us like this.
please be a grateful person Anis..

I hope, my action next will determine the best way for me to accept His rezqi. 
not like my mistake before.

time, please change my life again to better than before..
(-_-)

Saturday, June 9, 2012

violet

 

 

 

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purple vs turquoise n pink eyes

 

 

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trying harder. =P

 

xoxo~

Uncle De n fut-Auntie De

 

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looking for new born baby boy’s cloth

 

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present for new born Ammar Mushrif

 

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cute little baby.. i was afraid to carry him.. so small… n_n

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the very first muiezz’s nephew.

xoxo~